Wednesday, November 08, 2006
I really made a huge mistake , what in the world was I thinking
before that I did not even have the urge to do anything , why didn't I think of clothes!!!!
I really want to erase time , but then again if I do that I may make the same mistake again next time as I would not have remembered what happened !
oh please , some kind angel , please come , and buy it away !
This few months I have been really depressed at home , at this point , if I don't stop doing such stupid things , I may go crazy , my heart pumps very fast whenever that happens as I am agitated . I may be the skinniest person , but I could possibly burst a blood vessel , or suffer from an asthma attack , as I do have a history of asthma.
the bed would probably be my only companion , I have been sleeping at 9 , all because of these events , tired ??? No , but as I lie there , thoughts raced through my head , I never sleep till 2 hours later .
i never thought i would say this , or even blog like that , but i guess , time+ hormones+ depression = engulfed in emo-ness
maybe some light is coming through , endorphines , they make my day , when my heart pumps in ballet , I feel much better after that , though im still hurting inside , from such stupidity .
My sister just booked tickets , so other than going chicago and Milwaukee , which is new, I am going to an all American rejects concert in san Jose ! $25 per ticket , seating and $8 for some crappy reason , its just going to be me, my sister , and some other American teens . I pray , there would not be any psychos or that I get trampled on !
swing swing !! Dirty little secret!!Move along !! Would probably be flashing all the way there .
I must say , Amanda , this is your longest post ever, maybe the thought of dying has pushed your whole writhing career in blogger to a whole new level.(see even the last line is long )
Amanda typed at 6:20 PM
Freedom of speech aint really freedom of speech
